“One More Sip & I’ll Be Happy”

2 min readNov 24, 2022

If you repeat anything fifty times, it will get ingrained in your mind.

It will stay with you forever in your memory in the physical form of sulci and fissures.

(Those grooves in your brain)

Count the number of times you’ve lifted a glass to your lips and drank from it.

If you’ve been drunk more than 56 times, you’ve developed a code, and you probably didn’t even realize it.

No, you didn’t set out to do that on purpose and it wasn’t about that.

You probably picked it up because of the continued pain and distress in your life.

Because of the pain we’re creating in our body with the poison, we keep drinking it.

For the simple reason that stopping drinking brings awareness to the real pain.

To be sober is to feel the pain of emotions you’d rather not experience.

“My back hurts a lot while I’m sober”.

“When I’m sober, I’m plagued with flashbacks and other unpleasant memories from my past, and that’s a feeling I don’t enjoy at all”.

“I’m not interested in feeling the pain”.

“If I could avoid it, I will”.

Moreover, we don’t drink alcohol because we don’t give a damn.

As a coping mechanism, we imbibe to dull our feelings of how much we truly care.

We drink because we worry about the consequences of feeling our emotions.

The confusion arises at this point.

This is where the misconception plays a major role in the perception of why most people drink.

You care so much that you drink excessively and in such a careless manner.

Neither sexes are egocentric; people care about others as well as themselves.

They believe they can’t continue to care about their family, their career, or their future unless they can dull the pain of those feelings.

“Keep going, I think I can make it one more day if I can stop this feeling”.

“It’s not in the cards for me to enjoy a long and healthy life”.

“You need to keep up the struggle”.

“You should be happier. One more sip and I’ll be happy”.

The harder it gets, the better is your payout, right?

Therefore, the more severe your suffering, the better.

Is that why we drink to relieve the pain of self-inflicted punishment?

“If I hurt myself for long enough, maybe I’ll get lucky and something good will come of it”.

All because we’ve been brainwashed to believe that those who work harder deserve more.

Those that suffer longer, are destined to be allotted more happiness.

That is the illusion provided by the very substance that’s inflicting the pain.

-Kohdi Rayne

Written by Kohdi Rayne